sekali lagi......
semua hal terjadi......
tanpa suatu keinginan yang disengaja....
tapi semua hal yang terjadi kenapa begitu sama persis.....
semua rasa,,,sensasi,,,dan penat yang dirasa kenapa tak ada beda....
sekali lagi....
dan untuk kesekian kali...
apa ini permainan Tuhan?
tapi buat apa?
apa maksudNya?
dan sekali lagi...
everything was absolutely perfect!!

suatu yang saya gak pernah ngerti..saya kembali ngerasa gak jelas!
sumhow saya trus ngerasa semua hal manjadi salah dimata saya..
dan saya sangat marah pada seluruh dunia..
saya pengen teriak,,,berontak dan memaki..
tapi saya gak tau apa sebabnya..
yang pasti saya ngerasa sepi..
ngerasa sendiri....
mungkin ada sesuatu yang hilang dalam diri saya...
yang saya butuhkan.......
tapi apa???
kenapa semua gelap,,,,samar,,,,,
gak jelas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
njiss....

what are really happened??
i never know..
everything seems blur..
all i know i was torn apart...
and try to reach myself again..
when everything come suddenly..
and i need sumone to hold on..
i found nobody...
loneliness is killing...
so silent....
and i just know that..
i'm only a dead body...
with no feeling anymore....
is it the loneliness?? or the thought?? that stop my heart..
i would never know....
until its time....

Va' dove ti porta il cuore

dan kelak,disaat begitu banyak jalan yang terbentang..
dan kau tak tau jalan mana yang harus kaupilih..
maka berdiam dirilah dahulu...tenang...berdiam dirilah
hiruplah dan hembuskan nafasmu perlahan,dengan penuh kepercayaan..
seakan itu adalah nafas pertama yang kauhirup saat kau lahir ke dunia..
kemudian tenanglah...dan berpikirlah...
dengarkan suara hatimu..
dengarkan apa katanya..
kemudian......
pergilah kemana hati membawamu....

va' dove ti porta il cuore= pergilah kemana hati membawamu

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
High up above or down below when you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones And
I will try to fix you


sumhow this song is getting personal in me..........
especially "when u get what u want but not what u need"
anjis!!!!! it was damn right!! cuma suka rada gak nyadar aja.....

lonely???

saat kita ngerasa kesepian bgt,,seakan dunia ini ngemusuhin kita,dimana kita berada di dalam keadaan yang menuntut diri untuk beradaptasi dengannya...
just think! is it worth enough to u to adjust urself to the world? kalo iya..so do it! karena mau bagaimanapun kita tetep gak bisa maksain kemauan kita........ kalau kita tetep maksain yang ada kita bakalan ngerasain kalo kita sendiri...sepi...
bayangin aja....u versus the whole world????? its too much effort....and what will u get?? nothin' but loneliness!!!
think positively......cause sumtimes the thought 'bout a big bad world is just in our mind! dont judge anything sceptically........do it and your life will never be the same again!!

this is bout sumthin' that i had through....

apa sih mau mereka???

do u know how its feel when u had sumbody that always told u what u have to do..... gosh!!!!! just make me feel sick! knapa sih orang gak bisa nerima orang lain apa adanya, realized people!!!!!!! the world is plural.....
jangan pernah maksain apa yang kamu mau dong ama orang lain,,,,APAPUN ALASANNYA!!!!
setiap orang kan punya alesan masing2 untuk menjadi seperti apa...kalo emang mau ngasih saran sih boleh aja,,bahkan saya sangat gak setuju dengan orang yang gak bisa terima pendapat orang lain! tapi tetep namanya saran ya boleh diturutin atau nggak kan? dan saya masih punya otak buat mikir apa saran itu bisa cocok dengan keadaan saya atau tidak....just dont say that u know me better than me! noup..noup
by the way,,,kalo mereka-mereka yang mungkin nganggep saya "beda" terus ngomongin hal yang sama... dan terus bilang saya bisa lebih baik kalo menjadi ''bukan saya'',,,,,u guys just wastin' ur time!
saya tau apa yang ada di diri saya,,,dan saya tau kapan saya harus berubah atau tidak...so..sit,,,,relax,,,n watch me..................

Staple It Together

It’s really too bad

He became a prisoner of his own past

He stabbed the moment in the back with the round thumbtack

That held up the list of things he got to do

It’s really no good

He’s moving on before he understood

He shot the future in the foot with every step he took

From the places that he’s been because he forgot to look

He better staple it together and call it bad weather

Well I guess you could say

That he don’t even know where to begin

Because he looked both ways but he was so afraid

Digging deep into the ditch every chance he missed

And the mess he made

Because hate is such a strong word

And every brick he laid, a mistake they say

That his walls are getting taller, and his world is getting smaller

Better staple it together and call it bad weather

Better staple it together and call it bad weather

If the weather gets better we should get together

Spend a little time or we could do whatever

And if we get together we’d be twice as clever

So staple it together and call it bad weather

staple it together,by jack johnson,in between dreams

unsatisfied.......salah satu behaviorisme manusia!
just can't enough...
gak nyadar dengan apa yang dipunya...
gak pernah bersyukur dengan yang ada..
selalu menuntut untuk lebih..lebih dan lebih
menyia-nyiakan yang ada,,,dan setelah semua ilang baru ngerasa memiliki..
u just don't know what u've got until it's really gone...
dan setelah semua ilang....don't expect too much..

hmmm...
masih?nggak?masih?nggak?masih?nggak?.............................still not getting any!!!!!!
hahahaha.....apaan siy? (ignore it!! ignore it!!)